beauty in the breakdown
ok. day 2 was much better. and i'm very comforted by the fact that there's people like lynette, usarin, yin wai, chuting, zifang etc asking if i was fine and comfortable in nj. people i least expected like lynette and usarin caught me by surprise. but i'm sure glad even if it's just a quick hello. shows how reliant i am on friends huh?
today was still pretty much filled with talks. but i still kept going back to look for chuting and zifang during break and lunch. i'm sorry if i'm irritating you guys ok? just tell me if you would prefer to stick with your og. then maybe i shall go look for yinwai instead. anyway just one more day to survive before the real fun of orientation sets in. i wasn't so disorientated today. although i was sorely tempted to crash chuting's og for mass dance, i bravely went back to my own. and it didn't prove to be a wrong decision because i still enjoyed myself nonetheless. plus i didn't get to partner a guy so double yay! but i feel q bad cuz when kaiting pulled me to join a guy and there were more guys than girls, i paired with this rv girl. then her good friend ask if i want to exchange place with her. then i was like no. feel q bad cuz they're good friends afterall. but i think they didn't take offense because we started to laugh at almost every single thing and it was overall a pretty fun experience dancing the 'guy' part. hahs.
anyway i'm just trying to keep my spirits up and just hang in there. somehow at the back of my mind i'm hoping and praying very hard that next week would get better with the games and bonding sessions. and i'm more prepared to go on my own now. at least i'm mentally prepared not to have any crescentians with me since i'm the only arts person (as for as i know) hiaz, the cold hard truth. )=
but yea, dont worry too much my friends. yuexi is still hanging on fine. not getting worst but rather, feeling just a tad bit better. it's all about learning to adapt.
anw i really miss edwyna and pearlyn right now because their orientation ends so super duper late we've got hardly any time to catch up via phone. i wonder how they're doing over at hc and sa respectively. but congrats pearlyn on getting into ki! i think i wouldn't have make the mark if i went for the test.
this week is slack week for me. but tomorrow i should be going to do mani and pedi (if pearlyn decides to pon her campfire) with pearlyn and then head over to crescent. i'm so excited and happy about the prospect of going back to crescent even though it wont be as fun as the prev 4 yrs since we dont get attached to any class and make the new little sec one kids high. but i'm looking forward to seeing familiar faces and being in a school i'll gladly call a home. i dont think i'll get to see much of the teachers. but hack! i need to see crescent. i cant seem to aptly describe the kind of longing i feel towards the school, even if it's empty with no students.