i need more than just that

i'm struggling between falling sick and being normal. for half a day i'll feel fine, just a little tired but nothing more than that. and for the other half of the day i'll feel really dead and like someone is constantly squeezing my head or sth. sucks when you're falling sick but just not yet. i've been popping panadols, clarinase, lemsip max and all those rubbish but nothing is working. the most i'll feel fine for the next few hours and then start feeling dizzy and all.

i really dont want wednesday to come. and i have alot of papers to complete. i feel so drained, so tired. it's an impossible feat. i wish my parents would forbid me from going out.

but ytd was a good destressing session. went to mind's cafe to celebrate edwyna's birthday. played games and had dinner. at least i didn't think about all those stuff running through my brain.

anyway, hope you had a good day ytd dear!

ok...my papers are beckoning me. i think i'm going on a hiatus from now. i'm determined to get my A1s. even if i dont, at least i know i've done my best. and another reason is that i wont have to explain to anyone about my prelim results which are coming out on wednesday.

to those still doing final years or going to do o level's
here's a meaningful lyrics to jay chou's wo niu which i heard on the radio ytd.

该不该搁下重重的壳
寻找那里有蓝天
随着轻轻的风轻轻的飘
你静得像都不敢歇忑

我要一步一步往上爬
等待阳光静静看着它的脸
小小的天有大大的梦想
重重的壳挂着轻轻的仰望
我要一步一步往上爬
在最高点撑着夜往前飞
让风吹干流过的眼泪
总有一天我有属于我的天



signed and sealed with love at...3:15 PM
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