give me a happy pill, that's all i ask of you

everytime i come online, type out a whole long post about dissapointments and failure, click the publish post button and decide against it 5 mins later. so i find myself going back to edit the post and saving it as draft. there's like 3 such posts already. so count yourself unlucky if you managed to read any. but i doubt anyone got the chance to since the only regular reader i can think of is pearlyn, who only comes online once a month or something. then of course there's occasional ones like nicole. pls do leave a tag if you visit so i know who reads my blog!

i really cant wait for the day when i can delete those posts without a sigh, or maybe read those posts and just laugh at myself for being so emotional.

prelim is more than just a test of your academic knowledge. it's a test of how well you can go through the whole emotional roller coaster of screwing up almost every paper although you studied and then picking yourself up and going on this whole ride again. it sucks.

oh man. i better stop all these.

goodbye.

just one week and 2 more days.

btw, i dont intend to go to school for the first month anymore. the rate that everything's going. i'll be thankful if i get less than 13 pts, but i wont question God if i get more than that. i'll probably just go home and cry the shit out of me and prepare to make my one month useful. (dont ask me why this number, it's just that i dont like it. in fact i dont like a 2 digit l1R5.)





signed and sealed with love at...1:49 PM
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