do you still remember the steps to the dance?

oh man. i've been pigging so much on food lately i feel so guilty. yet there's always this craving for things like chocolate, ben and jerry's and very random things like tom yam maggie mee. yes, i know i'm weird. and don't keep saying i'm thin cause i'm not. i have hidden fats all over. and my arms are so not nice now. and my tighs too. ok. i should stop going on about looks since it's all superficial anyway.

and so there's still lessons on this week. and today's el course was so boring plus i was so tired so i ended up dozing off. chuting was commenting on how one minute she'll see me writing out of the corner of her eye, and the next minute my pen would stop moving and she would see my eyes half close. hahas. so funny but true. i was seriously dying. and my body clock is so screwed up right now. i can only fall asleep at bout 1am no matter how early i lie on my bed and wait for my sleep bug to visit. and since there's el course for these 3 days, i need to wake up at normal school hours. and that leaves me more shagged then ever.

and my madness over trying to get a prom dress seems to be getting onto my mum. to think that she was so nonchalant when i was so excited. and now when my excitement is kinda dying off, she is getting all worked up. she even went asking around my aunty and her friends where to get nice dresses (other than the commercial daniel yan). she even went to find out the prices of tailor making a dress. she kept going on about picking the cloth at arab street then asking a seamstress(or whatever u call the person) to make. she was so excited it's rather funny. and then she showed me the dress she has which she's really proud of. she keeps asking me to try it on and keeps going on about how much it cost and that it's really nice and all. ok...so i admit it's really nice. the cloth is the kind i want. it's just the cutting of the dress that i'm rather hesitant about. cuz it's like low-cut in front and baring at the back. and to those who are close to me, you know i can't really bare much skin (well...u'll know the reason if u need to know) anw...we'll see how la huh.

ok...i'm going to ATTEMPT to sleep early for once

signed and sealed with love at...8:33 PM
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