i'm not the perfect girl to begin with

a math and chi papers have already came back. pretty much satisfied with these 2 considering the fact that my amath standard is more or less there... and i improved for chinese! (= tho my compo will pull it down to a b4, but it's still better than the c5/6 i've been getting the entire yr in 2006. at least i managed a b3 for paper 2. maybe it's really true when mummy said that it's not becuz i can't do it but rather i tell myself i can't before i even try. and of course all these goes to the Lord for helping me through each day and hanging on despite knowing that i can't do much cramming everything in the night before each paper. really really glad that i relied on Him entirely this time instead of on my own ability.

sad thing is there's tuition tonight. but i guess it won't be THAT bad since i've managed to complete that thick stack of ws he gave me.

and i'm going to esplanade library tomorrow! that's the like best national library in Singapore cause it's so quiet and has pretty sceneries for you to see. (=

ok...my blog entries are getting so boring cuz i've got absolutely nothing to say...

-will be back soon-

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you know, i was just blog hopping around as usual and i read this really really touching post on a certain blog. it's in chinese so just ask me for it if you want. it's something about her getting back her o level results and finding that she didn't do as well as expected. and how with the help of a tcher she manages to stand up all over again.

you know, i really admire those people who are able to stand up time and time again after setbacks. no matter how much i hate to admit it, i always take forever to pick myself up after a fall in my life. i always give myself excuses to cry and whine over things that have happened instead of standing up again and make use of every single second of what i have left to rectify the situation. i always push the blame to things/people around me instead of myself. it's like deep down inside me i shouldn't be acting/thinking like that, but i always cant seem to pull myself out of the dark times and move ahead with life. i know i always ask my friends to move along and forget the unhappy things in life. but ironically i'm the one making the same mistakes yet not heeding my advice to others.

and like i said that i would sort out my thinking after common tests and be a happy girl all over again. i just cant seem to do it. i blame it on the lack of personal time for me to sit down and really think, but it's just one of those excuses i guess. i'm just too afraid to face the problems, i just want to push them aside, plug myself to some blasting music and pretend nothing is bothering me. (and this used to work for a period of time) argh...i just hate myself for being so stupid.

so my message to those out there running away from your problems, you gotta face them sooner or later so just take a step back, sit down and really think and do something about them (which i will tonight/tmr)

on a lighter note, pearlyn's latest entry on her blog is totally the bomb. if not for some obligations (which i cannot mention), i will put it up on my blog for some laughter since cts are over. but since it's a 'politically' sensitive topic, i better not do it. and when i say 'politics' i don't mean the PAP and whatever government politics but rather CGS politics and dictatorship. are you itching to find out what exactly am i talking about? click here

signed and sealed with love at...5:44 PM
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