I promise to make you proud of me. I really will.

You know, there’s really certain things that are best left unsaid. Sometimes, it’s just too difficult to talk about something. Especially when it cuts so deep into your heart. I think I’ll really grow and learn a lot from this trial. One thing for sure, I’ll definitely do everything he can’t just to bring that small onto your face. It will never be the same, but at least what he can’t/ didn’t do, I’ll do it. It won’t be easy, but as long as I set my heart out on it, with your smile at the end of the day to keep me motivated, I’ll try my very best.

Ok…so I resolve to be a ‘chao mugger’ as shi mun puts on her blog. Not to come online to blog on the weekdays and only do it on the weekends. No more wasting of time, no more procrastination (this is gonna be one hard lesson to learn), and more work! Yes…that’s just the life of a typical sec 4. this will go full swing once I officially step down from council and cca. I’ll definitely miss both a lot, but it’s my responsibility as a student to set my priorities right and do well for the big o’s. there’s a whole lot of people having high expectations of me, especially Yours Truly. I’ll definitely not forgive myself if I screw up midyrs, prelims or o levels. Hopefully I can get into ___ through DSA. I really want to go there. Like miss tan puts it, “only compete against yourself and not those around you”. Push past my limits and I’ll be happy. Really.

And I blew my top at pearlyn again today. I promised not to do it this year anymore. And it’s only the eighth day into the new year. Damnit. I’m sorry dear! Better watch what shoots out of my mouth. But you know, sometimes I just get super pissed when people play or don’t concentrate when they should. Especially when they want to go home early and yet don’t cooperate. Everyone’s stress, not just you along alright.

signed and sealed with love at...10:43 PM
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