but i didn't promise you anything

oh man. i can go bang my head now because i slept at 10pm last night and only woke up at 7.30am today. which means it's a total of about 9.5 hours. that's like the longest sleep i've got since....like way before prelims or something. and worst still i'm still in the midst of o's and i'm starting to slack because i'm only left with

monday-Social studies
wednesday- geog paper 1
the next monday-chem and physics paper 1

i can totally smell freedom already. can't wait. but anyhow. the only reason i can offer myself about why i should be allowed to sleep for 10 freakin hours straight is that i've studied 4 Social Studies chapters and did 2 chaps of geog mcq ytd after physics paper. that's like one of the most productive day i had since i dont know when. but ya. i just hope what i study come out if not i can go bang the wall and die. bascially i'm studying all singapore chapters other than diplomacy and deterrence. and ytd i was just feeling so tired and just thought that sleep could do me some good by clearing up my head. i had so many thoughts running through i dont even know what exactly is bothering me. i think it's just a bit of everything which adds up to alot. for others, for myself, for the future, for the next few months. life is just full of uncertainty and decisions. if only there was a fool-proof way to do things. but that never happens and i kinda figured that sometimes i should allow myself to fail so that i learn the lesson the hard way.

physics was quite bad. but i hope at least i can maintain my B3? actually the more i get towards the end of o's. the more scared and dejected i feel because it really isn't going the way i hope. but then, i'm trying to leave it till january. and like what pearlyn said, by then i wont even remember which paper i screwed up.

ok. i should start sudying SS and my mum seems to want me to go out and look for my dress once she's done gyming at planet fitness in vivo. i dont know if i'm going yet. let's say if i finish ALL my ss i'll go and give myself a break.

signed and sealed with love at...9:21 AM
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