when you walk away, i count the steps that you take.

you know reading juniors' blogs about how much they're gonna miss their sec1and2 class and how they promise each other to stay tight and everything even though they'll probably end up in different classes just brought back so much memories for me as well. like how g1'04/05 managed to win so many awards together and keep our grades among the first and second in the whole level. how everyone was just so tight and there wasn't any competition among each other to do well, we simply worked together as a team and all. all the promises we made but somehow faded with time. i guess some things gone will never come back. we've all moved ahead with life, just leaving memories behind. i'm just glad i didn't take my time for granted in lower sec. although i really really miss the true spirit of camaderie in the class, at least i know that i've treasure every second we had and i didn't do anything against my conscience. those were the moments which form an inaugrable part of my life in crescent. to say the truth, i guess i wont share the same sentiments for my upper sec class. in upper sec, everything was just somewhat different. especially in a competivite class like mine. i've really really felt that sometimes we're not battling the exams together as a class, but rather secretly battling against each other. correct me if i'm wrong. but that's just what i feel. but nonetheless, c3 has also formed a part of my crescent life.

oh wells. why am i talking about the past?!

anyhows, just for those who are wondering. papers next week are as follows:
monday: English paper 1 and 2 and emath paper 1.
i hope my brain can function well with 3 papers in a day. and i'm q freaked out by ALL 3 papers because english is like...)= and i'm q weak in my emath paper 1.
tuesday: Emath p2
wednesday: Higher Chinese p1 and 2
friday: physics.

i'm q scared by everything next week as well. cause i'm not confident of any. i hope emath would be fine and i dont make careless mistakes for paper 1.

on a totally different note, i'm quite disgusted with myself. the fact that i've strayed from God again. but then i must praise Him for giving me the calm before each paper. it's quite amazing how i dont shiver anymore while waiting outside the hall. how i just feel assure somehow that i will be able to do the paper. no doubt i'll be like chanting formulas in the canteen and stuff. but somehow i'll manage to calm down outside the hall and even talk about the most random things with chuting. hahas.

i cant wait for the week to be over. once it's over, it's just plain drilling of mcq and studying of SS. i hope what the school predicts for ss is accurate cause geog and history has been pretty off. \=

but those are over and i'm not gonna think about them anymore. i've really tried and put in effort this time. although the dissapointment might be really great next year, at the very least i've gave it my best shot. no more regrets like in common tests, mid year and prelims.

signed and sealed with love at...11:08 AM
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