there's always a rainbow after a storm

to those who read my blog: i'm sorry for boring you with endless emo posts for the past few months. i know it gets really irritating when you read just emo posts. there's really so many others out there whom i never imagined read my blog. be it those who tagged or simply dropped me a msg via sms/msn. i really appreciate your words of encouragement. it's not easy but i'm trying. once again, thanks for everything!

e math paper 2 today was much better than paper 1. not the best but i'm extremely thankful that i did ok (i hope) i finished the paper in top speed cause i was expecting difficult questions at the back. surprisingly it's alright. i lost more marks than i can afford, but i'm thankful that at least i managed to attempt every question. a1 is gone unless they moderate, but nonetheless, i could feel Your presence and that's all i can ask for.

geog was a blur. but no, this time i'm not gonna complain or whine about it. so there.

i'm taking a break for a few hours. remaining papers are rather easy to study for, i guess... physics prac on monday which i've got 0% confidence for since pract sessions were a blur. tues is higher chi both papers. the only thing i can do is read up for paper 1 so that's what i'm gonna do and hope that what i read comes out. higher chinese is one subject that is unpredictable. but most of the time i scrap passes. things got a little better this year, but it's still up and down and i still dont have the confidence for it. but since i've already made it all the way here, survive the chi o's last year, i might as well go all the way. lucky for those who end today.

i've been thinking alot since i got home just now. and a simple remark by hani just totally struck me. this morning she said "we only got about 2 weeks left in the school". and yes, that's pretty much our time left in crescent and then now i'm getting all upset about it. i dont want to leave this place. it's a place where i made many friends. and no matter how much we say that we're "friends forever" (in lower sec) and that we'll keep in touch and everything. somewhere at the back of my mind i know that forever doesn't really exist. along the way, we will break up. maybe we'll get the chance to meet up again 10 years down the road, maybe we'll never meet each other ever again. it's funny how 2 person can get so close and be the best of friends in a few months or years, but then later become total strangers. maybe it's really true when they say that friends come and go. you win some and you lose some. i'm not saying that i've got no faith that my friends and i will still continue as friends and all. but reality bites and the fact still stays that we'll soon drift apart. it's just a matter of how far apart. i'm sure there will be some i know i can always count on, even if it's like we've never spoken in months and stuff. but other close-but-not-so-close friends will soon fade with time and then maybe disappear altogether. but moving on is part of life, no one can resist the passing of time.

oh wells. maybe the rest should just remain in my mind...

signed and sealed with love at...2:27 PM
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