the hardest decision

mum whipped up the best lunch ever today. full western course with home-made fries and all. i had steak but i just went to the toilet with diarrhoea. it better not be the beef, since it was only half done. or even worst, getting that funny stomach virus my cousin and brother got a few days back. i cannot afford to fall sick. cannot cannot.

anyhows, auntie and cousins would be going back to holland again later today. and before she left she gave us $$$ each. 50 bucks no joke ok! so maybe i will forgive my cousins for making so much noise playing with the brother for the past 1 week. hehe. no la, just joking. apparently we might be going to vivo for dinner later. But i'm not too keen because i need to study and i've been wasting time again today. but then going to vivo=shopping. which poor yuexi has been deprived of for the past 2 mths?! seriously, i've havent been out for a proper shopping trip in a while. and since i now have the 50 bucks from aunty, doesn't that make it a perfect excuse to go get some clothes? hahas. shall see how. i'm just keen on shopping but not the dinner part.

ok..since it's singapore's 42th birthday today. let me do a short para about my feelings as a singaporean. you can just skip this since i think it's gonna be a bore. well...so i've been living in singapore for the past 16 years of my life, and there were certainly times when i fantasize about migrating overseas to say, australia or america. Afterall 3 out of 6 of my dad's siblings are overseas. with 1 in australia, 1 in america and 1 in holland. (the holland one is coming back to singapore for good next month tho) i always yearned for the time when i can study abroad, get away from the crazy singapore life, take the chance to learn proper english and all. i don't know if that will really come true, but i hope it will. nonetheless, as the years go by, i start to appreciate this little red dot more. i like the stability, lack of natural disasters and basically being able to walk on the streets without having to fear of being robbed etc. i guess that's something many people took for granted. but after going to china on the exchange prog last year and having to brave the cazy traffic and not get knocked down by a car. I'm glad that singaporeans are so law-abiding you dont really have to worry about cars not stopping at the red light. i'm serious. Furthermore, Singapore's economy is growing pretty much each year and there won't be a time for me to have to worry about my parents losing their jobs etc. i'm glad for the stability of this little island despite it's limited land space. Although we might be a small country, but i guess there's sufficient entertainment venues for us. And i'm certainly looking forward to the upcoming marina bay with all the exciting changes such as the singapore flyer. yups. but of course there will be times when i feel frustrated living here. sometimes i'm even ashamed to be a singaporean especially with our infamous Sing-lish. it's rather embarassing although it kinda makes up our singapore culture. I'm not saying that i speak perfect english, but it's just that some people speak so badly it doesn't look good to foreigners. Not to forget things like using tissue paper to 'reserve' seats and all. oh wells, so here's my take on being a singaporean. what's yours? (i'm not degrading singapore or anything so pls don't sue me for this para). i guess to a pretty large extent i'm proud to be a singaporean. (=

ok...so it's time to start the engines and mug. goodbye

signed and sealed with love at...2:43 PM
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