and in this crazy life, through these crazy times

i've been sleeping my saturday away. don't know why but i just felt so so tired. reached home at 1pm after speech day. bummed around and had lunched. fell asleep while memorising SS. selpt for 3 hrs straight. Woke up, attempted Chem. Dinner. Attempted SS which made me fall asleep again. i think SS is super sleep inducing when you're trying to remember the points. i hope what i study will come out for mock. only intending to study 2 chaps. And Chem is a goner, there's no way i'll be able to finish every single chap by tuesday.

so anyway, i ended up sleeping at 10.30pm last night and i slept a grand total of 10 hrs. But i managed to drag myself up by 7.30am today and get some more SS done before heading to church. Despite the long hrs of sleep i got last night, i ended up dozing off during sermon. not good at all. Mummy didn't even attempt to wake me up. tsk.

i really want to go out shopping. or at least indulge in some really sinful good food. But whenever i look at the study schedule which i have not been sticking too, the tears just start to well up and i cant seem to find the joy in doing any other thing. it's just a matter of when i'll collapse. strictly speaking, i've got no right to complain here. Everyone is going through the same thing. who am i to complain? in fact i have God to help me through this. i'm not alone. For that, i'm glad.

prelims in 25 days. and i'm not a single bit prepared. shit ass.

i want to do well. i need to do well. i want to see myself during speech day again next yr.

i shall get more SS and Chem done then.
There's a dream i want to accomplish. And i'm not doing it for anyone other than You.

And in case i don't have the chance to come online again before wednesday.

Good luck my darling juniors for Yes-Nec Finals on Wednesday! Give it your best shot i'm confident you guys can create the glory enterprise needs. Whatever it is, all the seniors are rooting for you. i really hope i can make it down on wednesday, but if i don't i'll be keeping my fingers crossed the entire time i scribble in the paras for SS mock.

With much love and good luck! =D

signed and sealed with love at...9:02 PM
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