still hanging on

yups...so life's pretty alright (other than my screwed up fringe. but that's not the point)

results today. let's just say i'm accepting whatever comes my way with a few occasional whines along the way. but deep down i'm glad i'm able to get the marks i'm getting cuz i left it in His hands to take care of everything. at least i'm not failing anything (as yet). and yea...i guess those are the kinda marks i'll get since i put in that amount of effort. but english has been a huge huge dissapointment. compo was supposed to be my strong point, but this time it wasn't. hcl marks were almost the same as el. so you can imagine how horrible my L1 is now.

i'm totally looking forward to ine meeting tmr! seems like eons since i last went for one. FUN is the word.

and i've decided to invite the whole I&E to my hse! cool or cool? i just hope most of them wud bother to come. but even if they don't at least i know my friends like pearlyn wud be there. hahas. and i really really hope ms tan can come! she missed it last yr and she promised to come for this one (but she forgot about the promise) and now she keeps saying she's busy and all. hiaz. whatever it is, it wud be great for her to be around. she's like my crapping partner already (if she's not moodswinging)

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ok..so i'm online supposed to do up an invitation for i&e. but my mind is seriously blank. and i don't know how to design nice invites. arh. this sucks. i'm never ever an adobe person. so i'm just staring at the empty canvas.

and then my thoughts start to stray and i'm having very sudden and bad cravings for loads of sinful food. \=
1. NYDC (believe or not i haven't been there)
2. Bubble Tea
3. Sakae Sushi
4. Good Dim Sum (crystal jade is just...not my taste anymore)
5. Subway cookies
6. Max Brenners
7. Starbucks/coffee bean (i dont mind any)

and of course loads of things i wanna do. like meet up with suikim and liting, go for Nj Aristal (but i'm seriously broke), to catch up with everyone i was neglecting, to have a good talk with _________, to picnic in Botanical Gardens (it's so fun the last time i went), just spent a quiet night strolling along clarke quay/marina bay and soaking in the city life, go for late night shopping, sleepover!

sometimes i just keep fantasizing about going away into the night and just to spend time alone. not having to bother about anything in life. just leaving everything behind. but like i said, this is just a dream that would never ever come true.

sometimes i just wish to sit along the singapore river, with the cool sea breeze whipping against my face and just spending some time with a special someone. no words would be exchanged becuz we just know what is going thru each other's mind. we will sit back-against-back, looking at the vast blue sky dotted with stars and just as if time has stood still and the magical and tranquality would last forever.

hiaz. the small pleasures of life that seems to be washed away by the hustle and bustle of the city life. seriously, singapore has amazing night scenes. it's just a matter of slowing down and enjoying them. i just wish i didn't have to keep to the curfews set by my parents. i just want to spend a quiet night out. i guess this wud only happen a couple of years later in my life. and by then i might have just lost all these.

actually it's quite weird how i can be so happy and all in school, yet become such a sentimental person when i reach home. weird huh?

ok...i'm talking in circles and not making much sense.

i better go get started on doing the invites then. (=

signed and sealed with love at...6:53 PM
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