hiaz...you know sometimes i'm just caught in a dilema. i know you need help, and i've been trying to help you. but every time you talk to me, the things u tell me just hurt me you know. it's almost as if all that i've done doesn't have a single effect on you. i know it is not easy for you too. and you are just speaking your mind. i'm totally fine with it if you are at least trying to change. but i don't even see you trying a single bit. it's like you even want to hold on and not change. others are even telling me to stay away from you. but i'm not doing that cause i know as a friend i should help you. and that's is what God wants me to do too. but sometimes i just wonder if i should just leave you to be and keep a distance from you. maybe it would be better for both of us. all that is keeping me there is God. without him, i would have just given up long ago.